Sunday, July 21, 2013

Missing

             It had been a trying day.  The heat, the sluggish car, the stand still traffic, and five kids in tow were taking their toll on all of us.  We even heard the dreaded, “I am not going to poop in my pants, Mommy,” from the back seat. 
              So yes, we pulled into the nearest WAWA immediately after that wonderful announcement.  Yours truly volunteered to take the three year old to the bathroom.  As we were leaving, he put his hand in mine and said,” Thank you, Mommy, you are my bestest friend, thank you.”  I guess he really had to go!  So we pressed on and made it to our destination.
            The A.I.DuPont Children’s Hospital in Wilmington received us with welcoming smiles and helpful information.  It was not our typical hospital greeting and this gave me some hope.  Maybe this will not be so bad. Maybe we will really get some answers today.
            By the time we were ushered into the exam room to wait for Jackson’s orthopedist, our other children were literally walking around in circles.  It was about 2:30 in the afternoon.  The kids and the exam room were not a good mix.  So, when we suggested that Bella stay with them in the colorful waiting area, complete with an electric train table, television, and fosse ball, no one seemed to mind. 
            The orthopedic staff was incredible.  We were relaxing.  And by the time Jackson was called to go get his x-rays done, we were all joking around.   Then, the “good” chain of events was broken.
            “Your daughter just informed us that she cannot find her brother.  We have just told security, but we wanted to let you know.”  I looked at Chris.  He went out to the waiting area, and I walked with Jackson to get his x-rays taken.
            I had begun praying the moment that the receptionist informed us of Elias’ missing status.  I had no panic, no anxiety.  I knew his Heavenly Father was with him and that I did not need to fear.  I knew it was a large hospital and I did not know how long he had been missing, but I would not fear.  It was instant grace for a mother to walk with her 13 year old to his x-rays and let others search for her missing 3 year old. 
            Then we heard over the loud speaker, “Would the three year old, Elias, in the blue shirt with the bear please return to the Shands area desk.”  I stopped in mid stride.  I looked at Jackson and I grabbed his arm.  “Jackson, we need to pray, right now.  We need to pray that they find him.”  So we prayed.  I prayed through all of my panic and fear.  I prayed Elias into Jesus’ hands.
            After I walked Jackson to the x-ray waiting room, I let the receptionist know I needed to find my husband, that missing child was my son.  I looked at Jackson and told him Dad or I would be right back.  And I walked as fast as I could in my leg brace and kept on praying.  They made that announcement because Chris couldn’t find him.  This is not good, Lord.  Help me.
            As I walked through the door into the waiting area of the Shands wing, I found my family.  Their backs were all turned to me and so I looked at the floor.  I knew what everyone’s shoes looked like.  I was looking for a pair of little blue crocs.  Then I saw right in front of Chris, a pair of little blue crocs.  My internal sigh of relief was huge.  It’s going to be ok now.  We are all together.  Thank you, God.
            “Ok, Chris, you go be with Jackson.  I will stay here with the kids.  I am not leaving them.  You came to be with Jackson.  Go.”   He went.  I stayed. 
            I comforted Bella, who did not know if she had done the right thing.  I told her I was so proud of her and that she absolutely did the right thing.  She smiled a big smile.  She had passed that test.  I thanked the nurse who had found Elias, and then I heard the story.
            The boys were all enamored with the electric trains and were watching the model train set along with some other children when a few preschoolers about Elias’ age came running down the walkway.  Elias was drawn to them and their play and just ran off along with them.  He had gone down one hall, into the next, and had found the entrance to the hospital.  He was running around in the vestibule.  He was calling and looking for me.
             A lot of people come in and out of those doors.  One can also see right through those doors to the large playground across a driveway.  God protected Elias from the wrong kind of people and from running into a busy driveway. 
            We were of course, incredibly thankful for the staff of A.I. DuPont, for their diligence and help.  I decided to take the children back to the entrance area for a snack and a quick visit to the playground before we went back to wait for Jackson.  It was fun for them and I was able to breathe a little easier. 
            When we came back to our seats in the waiting area, Jackson and Chris were coming out to find us.  It was all over.  Just like that.  Elias had been found, Jackson had just seen the former head of pediatric orthopedics at the best pediatric orthopedic hospital in the country, and now we could go home.
            I went over to the receptionist that had been so helpful to us and thanked her again before leaving. “Oh, don’t even mention it.  We are everybody’s aunt around here.  We watch out for each other.  He is just like the Duke.  You can’t tell him anything.  He just walks around like he owns the place.  He knows who he is and he knows what he wants and you can’t tell him no.”  I laughed at the mental picture I had in my mind.  My three year old with his blond locks jumping into an orange 1969 Dodge Charger with the rebel flag painted on the roof.  Yes, handsome and nice, but a rebel none the less.  Um, I don’t think so.  We will be working on this behavior when we get home! Maybe “the Duke” will stick though.  It’s kind of cute.

 


            As we walked down the colorful hallway, passing all kinds of children in wheel chairs, Chris and Jackson told me his prognosis.   They could do surgery to correct his foot and leg, but there was no need.  Just orthotics in good shoes, and come back in 6 months.  That’s it. 
            I held Chris’ hand and I said, “Well, we had our missing son in Jerusalem moment.  Not quite the same, but it reminded me of that story.”   Chris was silent.  He was processing the days’ events.  I just squeezed his hand tighter.  The more he loves his children the more he feels the weight of the “what could have beens.” 
            As I walked to the car with my family, I wondered why I had not panicked more, why I had not rushed off to find my son right away.  Because I knew who was with him.  There is no one I would rather be with my son than God.  I do not need to fear because I know that God is with him. And He will always be with him.
            There will be a time when I will not be there to hold his hand, to take him to the bathroom, to help him find his way.  But when that time comes, I will not be afraid.  His Heavenly Father will be with him and with me.  God will guide and protect my son and He will comfort and help my heart as I let him go.  He will tell me it will be ok. “Why were you looking for me? Did you not know that I must be in my Father's house?”  And I too will treasure up all of these things in my heart.

~ Your Fellow Sojourner

“Now his parents went to Jerusalem every year at the Feast of the Passover. And when he was twelve years old, they went up according to custom. And when the feast was ended, as they were returning, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem. His parents did not know it, but supposing him to be in the group they went a day's journey, but then they began to search for him among their relatives and acquaintances, and when they did not find him, they returned to Jerusalem, searching for him. After three days they found him in the temple, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. And all who heard him were amazed at his understanding and his answers. And when his parents saw him, they were astonished. And his mother said to him, “Son, why have you treated us so? Behold, your father and I have been searching for you in great distress.” And he said to them, “Why were you looking for me? Did you not know that I must be in my Father's house?” And they did not understand the saying that he spoke to them. And he went down with them and came to Nazareth and was submissive to them. And his mother treasured up all these things in her heart.  And Jesus increased in wisdom and in stature and in favor with God and man.”  Luke 2:41-52
                                                                                           
Everyone is ready to go home.  The infamous train table is in the background.